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This is where I write about my life and (hopefully) figure out something about myself. I talk about what issues matter to me, from death and racism all the way to music and Childish Gambino.
I have 5 main personae (personas? idk, 5 split personalities) that I speak from: Puck, 8, Dubmac, Loverboy, and "?". They occasionally don't even agree on the same issues. ;)
Each identity is a facet of who I am. Each has a voice, an idea, a way of thinking. They're all important, and they make up who I am. So if you care to, read. Enjoy. Piece together my life, comment, follow, and learn about the real Mi8ke. Have fun ;)

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

The Ultimate Promise


There's not much I know with certainty, but I know I love you. This might scare you... but here I go...I want to give you this promise. I expect nothing in return. I know that you love me, and for now that is enough for me. I wouldn't change you for the world. If you need this time, then you need it. I trust you.
Mike, I promise to love you and only you for the rest of my life if you'll let me. I promise to protect you when you're afraid and be here for you when you need me, no matter what. I promise myself to you: I promise my heart, mind, and body to you... until you know longer want it, that right is yours. I will be your friend, ally, protector, listener, and lover. I will never knowingly or willingly hurt you. I will always be on your side. I will never use your toothbrush before you. I will never pin your arms while you sleep. I will learn to sleep with fewer blankets, and give you a little room to breathe. I will give you freedom and your space when you need it, and comfort and a place to be held when you need that. I will never again try and guilt you into things you don't want to do. I will not be jealous or catty, because I know your love is mine, I do not need constant reassurance. I will you cook you breakfast in my underwear on Sunday mornings after doing all the things you like on a Saturday night. I will be your best friend. I will trust you. I will hear you out,and listen to your problems and opinions. I will tell you how gorgeous you are at every opportunity and try my hardest to never damage your confidence or ego. I will never miss a chance to say I love you. I will never run away no matter how hard things get. I promise to love you for you, not for a fantasy or who someone else wants you to be. I promise to accept you as you are and never try and change you. I promise to never let things end the way they did with our parents. I promise to be your glo-worm forever. I promise to not sleep with a stuffed animal. I promise to never make you watch cry baby again. I promise to see any future Transformers movies or other action-y things in 3D, no argument.I promise to be your best friend if thats all I can be. I promise to play video games and watch whatever you like half of the time. I promise to never fake it. I promise that your name will be the only name I scream. I promise that no matter where I am you are in my heart and I am thinking of you. I promise that none of the pain, or fear, or confusion you've ever experienced will be a waste. I promise that I will not be a waste of your time or disappoint you. I will not let us go... I promise to love you. 
-Frankie Rae