I know that I'm young. I get that. I know that to someone who's 50, i haven't yet begun to live. But aren't we all just vapors in the winds of Time? what is 36 years compared to eternity? My age does not depreciate my experiences, though i realize that there is still far more to know. Because I have had experiences, ones that are my own and that only I know. I've learned things in my 18 years of life some people still can't seem to grasp.
I've learned that people can love for the wrong reasons. I've learned that marriages sometimes just don't last, no matter how much you want them to, or how much it hurts... I've learned that sometimes, things don't happen for a reason. That you will always make a mistake, that failure is inevitable, and that life will hurt you. I've learned that trust is more fragile than a falling snowflake, and that to get it back, you'll have to go to the depths of Hell and back. I've learned that bad things happen to good people, and that evil prospers, that it is stronger than most things, fueled by greed, and hatred, lust and wrath.
But I've also learned that nothing is more powerful than real love. That life will keep going, that even if some things have no reason, other things do. That People can change. That If you try enough, you'll eventually succeed. I've learned that the feeling of total freedom is worth nearly anything. And I've learned that the work it takes to restore broken trust is worth it, because people are worth it, especially the ones you love. Because other people do matter in your life. Helping change someone else's life is how you change the world. how you give living a meaning.
The fact is, we are Vapors. It doesn't matter what religion you are, Time is bigger than any and all of us. It was there before we came into being, and when the world is no more, Time will continue. I've learned this in my 18 years. And i plan to learn more. and I will fail, i will make mistakes, i will be broken, and i will hurt. But i'll keep going. I'll keep moving forward, and keep loving, and helping, and trying to make a difference. I'll give the people who say i can't the finger, and prove them wrong. Because i can. I can, and i will, make it through whatever comes my way. I'll change the world. I'll change MY world. Because I believe in Me. But what do I know, I'm just another Vapor, right?
"When a butterfly flaps its wings in one part of the world it can cause a hurricane in another part of the world."
Author Unknown
