A Strange Dream

I had a dream last night that was like watching a movie. Two demi-angel friends (Idk how else to describe them and the situation they were in. They were extra strong and could jump super far, but were around 15-16.) were hanging out around a giant mansion when they came across a massive glowing tree.
One of them (I never got their names, but they were both girls, we'll call them Blue and Red.) said to the other, "I know what this place is. This is the original Tree of Power. If we eat the fruit from the tree, we can be stronger than the Elders." Blue was hesitant. "I don't know... Something about this Tree seems.... dark. I don't want to. Let's leave Red."
Red, however, was hypnotized. "I must have it. Blue, this is our destiny." Red reached for the fruit and took a huge bite, and for a moment, she glowed with the same powerful aura as the tree. Then, in a scream of pain, she fell to the floor. Blue ran all the way back to the Hall of the Elders and told them what happened. They told her that the tree was the original Tree of Good and Evil that caused the downfall of the humans. The Elders told her that the fruit would cause anyone with angel blood to become a demon, and that Red was lost to them now. the only way to defeat Red now would be to give her 5 more of the fruits around the Eden mansion.
Blue returned to Eden and got to Red, and she saw the last of her friend's transformation. Red had become a monstrous ball of darkness and shadow with tentacles. "Blue, you've come back. Excellent. Eat the fruit and join me." Blue replied, "Red, I'm so sorry.... I've come to defeat you..." Red howled with rage, "Fine! I will destroy you then!"
Blue ran to find the first fruit, which was in a spare room close to the back of Eden. When she finally got to it, she flung it at Red, who absorbed it, and shrieked as if in pain, but grew in size. In the rest of the dream, Blue went to other locations like the green room and the pool (That was a kool scene, She had to swim for it and was almost consumed).
Then I woke up :( I didn't get to finish it. It was a really kool dream though.

My favorite poems are written for women that I’ve loved and for women that I’ve hurt,
amazing moments in my life, and relationships that didn’t work.
The map of this human heart starts at the age of 15
when I lost my virginity to a lady slightly older.
And like most younger boys, it was based on the many lies that I told her 
just to hold her and to show her that I had so much to prove,
like I had more experience than she thought I knew. And even though it wasn’t true, 
it was amazing. 
But it ended because I did what most young boys do: 
listen to the rumors and the lies of a fool, which ultimately led to this poor girl getting socked in the jaw in the middle of school.
And even though I didn’t do it,
I felt like I was the one to blame cause the girl who hit her was the cousin of my man who was saltin' my game
and even now, looking back, I feel sort of ashamed.
Next came
a handful of one night stands and in the back of my mind I thought it might make me a man,
but instead I think it was an invite for the rest of my life to be damned
for further examination of my affairs between woman and man.
I mean, man, it gets stressful.
I mean, don’t get me wrong, it always starts special,
but it seems to end with the grays of at the least bit neglectful,
and at the most disrespectful.
But then around the age of 19 it felt like I let go.
That’s when I fell for my first girlfriend
and it was like a whirlwind. I mean,
do you remember when that you felt that if you did not see her today, that it would literally hurt you in a physical way?
Well, that’s how it was the first time I fell in love.
Shit, I drove to my pop’s house in the middle of the night, woke him up, and told him I got bit by the bug. And
pops, he kind of looked at me with a smile in his eyes,
as if to recognize that, me,
I was moving on to the next part of my life.
You see, that was the first girl that that I made love to,
to a point of
tears
and I can still hear her whisper in my ear
that she could feel me... melt into her.... when I was deep inside her.
With a statement like that, I knew the feelings that she felt for me were not minor,
but major,
but then I, all of a sudden,
had this overwhelming feeling like...
I like no longer wanted to date her.
It’s not like I was tryin to play her,
I just I knew in my heart I no longer could stay there.
And...
So, that ended
as quickly as it started. And accusations of me being cold-hearted
and here I stand,
guilty as charged.
For it was Dinner. Chinese Food,
and I just stopped and said, “Yo,
I 'm just not into this no more.”


And she was silent....


Then I hit it one time in the car before I dropped her off at the front door.
And why am I telling you all this?
Cause recently I had the realization, or at least,
I have come to terms that in my many relations there were many lessons that I did not learn.
Even though I know I should have and could have been a better man,
and instead I let her land flat on her face instead of helping her to land on her feet. Sometimes I ache for the company of a woman to make me feel complete.
But that never works,
because before I can be happy with you, I gotta be happy with me.
Now the God in me is looking at the man I be,
f#*kin with mass girls, causing mass insanity,
with no thoughts of family,
just simply recreation,
but then I had the realization.
The dynamic of man and woman....
is creation.
And I’m not just talking about the creation of children,
I’m talking about the creation of a feeling:
life, love, and dedication, which ultimately ensues in the creation of a better me,
and the creation of a better you. See,
Sex,
Sex at it’s best, is creation.
But at least,
it should at least be concentration.
I mean, if I’m making love to you,
I should be making love to you.
You should be the first person that I see when I walk in the room.
And now, looking back at all that s#!t that I used to do,
nowadays don’t seem cool.
But tell me what the f%*k am I supposed to do?
And then a wise man gave me a clue
He said,
“The only way out is the way through.”

"Texas Fight" 

Texas Fight! Texas Fight! 
And it's goodbye to A&M. 
Texas Fight! Texas Fight! 
And we'll put over one more win. 
Texas Fight! Texas Fight! 
For it's Texas that we love best. 
Hail, Hail, the gang's all here, 
And it's goodbye to all the rest! 

Yea, Orange! Yea, White! 
Yea, Longhorns! Fight! Fight! Fight! 
Texas Fight! Texas Fight! 
Yea, Texas Fight! 
Texas Fight! Texas Fight! 
Yea, Texas Fight! 
The 'Eyes of Texas' are upon you, 
All the live long day! 
The 'Eyes of Texas' are upon you, 
You cannot get away! 
Texas Fight! Texas Fight! 
For it's Texas that we love best! 
Hail, Hail, the gang's all here! 
And it's goodbye to all the rest! 

"The Eyes of Texas" 

The eyes of Texas are upon you, 
All the live long day. 
The eyes of Texas are upon you, 
You cannot get away. 
Do not think you can escape them, 
At night, or early in the morn. 
The eyes of Texas are upon you, 
'Till Gabriel blows his horn!

And Texas Longhorns for the win!!! We won in the last minute. A&M Played hard, but the dominate team prevailed. So it's goodbye to A&m till at least 2018. Peace!!!

This Year is Summer "Camp"

"“Can I tell you something?” And all of a sudden I’m telling you. And I keep telling you and it all comes out of me and it keeps coming and your face is there and gone and there and gone as we pass underneath the orange lamps that line the sides of the highway. And there’s no expression on it. And I think just after a point I’m just talking to lengthen the time where we live in a world where you haven’t said “yes” or “no” yet. And regrettably I end up using the word “destiny.” I don’t remember in what context. Doesn’t matter."

That's a piece of the end of "That Power", a song on Childish Gambino's new album, Camp. Honestly, this is one of the best Rap/Hip-Hop albums I've heard in a long ass time. CG, also known as Donald Glover, a writer on NBC's 30 Rock, and the character Troy on Community (Ya, this nigga does a bit of everything. Comedian, Actor, Rapper, and He's good at all of them) silently came on the scene and exploded.
    As a side note, I am not one of the people that heard Camp and hopped on his bandwagon. I was a CG fan since I Do Not Talk. (Though mixtape-wise, The EP was sooo much better)

Now look, here's the truth, ALL of the songs on the album are good. Most people will post on various sites that Heartbeat, the most Radio-friendly song on the album, is one of the best. However, I would encourage you to listen to each song and decide for yourself. Personally, My top 3 songs would be:
That Power (Duh. Great word play on the verses, and I love listening to what he says around the end.),
Bonfire (First song I heard on the album and i still love hearing it. Witty, Sharp, and Hard Hitting, I think it was probably the first song that had a Gir and Casey Anthony reference)
You See Me ("No period like menopause / No period like, "Oh shit! / Am I the only one you sleepin' with?" Damn....)

Go cop the Album. It's nice. Oh, also, Drake's Take Care is also nice. I like it, he provides some slower jams and lots of emotion. But I think CG wins. (Sorry Drizzy, do better next time.) In the meantime, I think Childish Gambino has proven that he definitely needs to be taken seriously (I bet that in the very near future, CG will be featured on some big name artist's songs. I'm just sayin...)

Here's a link to Rap Genius, which has the lyrics to Camp and CG's other songs. Enjoy!

"I wish I could say this was a story about how I got on the bus a boy and got off a man more cynical, hardened, and mature and shit. But that’s not true. The truth is I got on the bus a boy. And I never got off the bus. I still haven’t"

-Childish Gambino "That Power"

Holy S#!T !!!

Hyro Da Hero is an up and coming rap/rock combo out of Houston, Texas even though he bred his musical talents in L.A.  In April Hyro dropped his first real album Birth, School, Work, Death. His rock/rapping Creates a sound that not even Lil Wayne keep up with. His lyrics are hard hitting and straight real, and the hard drumming back ground sound makes this song a Speaker Blaster. Check out Hyro Da Hero and you won't be disappointed. I heard this guy last night and became an immediate fan. It's incredibly hard to find lyrics, so I'm going through the painstaking work of documenting lyrics at Rap Genius. (Link: http://rapgenius.com/artists/Hyro-da-hero ) Hopefully, people start to catch on to how awesome this guys is. If you read this blog, go to youtube and Type Hyro Da Hero and listen to this guys music, tell your friends about it. 

"They put a noose around 2Pac, How bout we paint over Elvis?"

-Hyro Da Hero

College....?

College is fun. It's a ton of work, but I am loving it. I want to experience everything. I love the campus, I love the  atmosphere, and the people are awesome. I've met so many people, it's hard to keep names straight. Bryon, my computer science friend, is a freaking genius to me. So is Myles "Tails" (I named him that) Erhlich. I know pretty much everyone on my wing of the dorms ;)

Freaking out!!!!

Oh MYFREAKINGGOODNESS!!! I just talked to the veteran's affairs office, and they told me because my dad doesn't live in texas, i can't have my tuition exempted. I'm in a state of panic right now. i don't know what i'm going to do. if i can't get benefits, my whole college future is in question.... pray for me world...

I feel like i'm going crazy. I don't understand my actions anymore. I'm running in circles... What's wrong with me?

Duuuuude, where's my summer?

So I'm trying to think of what I've done this summer, and the weird thing is, I've done a lot, but also very little. for example, on a whim, I when on a road trip to Nebraska, but didn't really do anything there. I went to Tyler, Tx, and I went to a real club for the first time, but again, I didn't actually DO anything. I feel like i'm just waiting to leave... Maybe I am. Maybe I'm ready to move on to a new part of my life (not that I'm not coming back for pieces of the old part). Honestly? I'm scared out of my mind about this whole college thing (Go Longhorns!!!). I have no idea what i'm going to do, or what's going to happen. But I need something to happen. I need new experiences, New stories to tell. I want to meet new people, and make new friends. I want to find out who i'll become. I just have to get out of Woodville, Tx.... 7 more days.

"Lose not yourself in a far off time, seize the moment that is thine."

-Friedrich Schiller

Time

Ugh... I don't think it's ever gonna happen. I mean, I reeeeaaalllly want certain things to move along before I go crazy. SOMEONE is a tease. Lol... Well, We chose her. And don't regret that choice. Yeah Yeah... I know, But i still want it. Hey, did you ever think it might not happen? 

“Faith is not simply a patience that passively suffers until the storm is past. Rather, it is a spirit that bears things - with resignations, yes, but above all, with blazing, serene hope.”

-Corazon Aquino quotes (Political leader and president)

Michael In Crazyland

Well, lets recap. I went to Nebraska with my girlfriend and her dad in a car with no Air Conditioning. I went to Orientation At the University of Texas (Which was amazing). I was in The play Alice In Wonderland as the Cheshire Cat. Life's been crazy, but I'm making it work. I wish things didn't have to be the way they are sometimes though...

Knowledge of a Vapor (full)

I know that  I'm young. I get that. I know that to someone who's 50, i haven't yet begun to live. But aren't we all just vapors in the winds of Time? what is 36 years compared to eternity? My age does not depreciate my experiences, though i realize that there is still far more to know. Because I have had experiences, ones that are my own and that only I know. I've learned things in my 18 years of life some people still can't seem to grasp.

I've learned that people can love for the wrong reasons. I've learned that marriages sometimes just don't last, no matter how much you want them to, or how much it hurts... I've learned that sometimes, things don't happen for a reason. That you will always make a mistake, that failure is inevitable, and that life will hurt you. I've learned that trust is more fragile than a falling snowflake, and that to get it back, you'll have to go to the depths of Hell and back. I've learned that bad things happen to good people, and that evil prospers, that it is stronger than most things, fueled by greed, and hatred, lust and wrath.

But I've also learned that nothing is more powerful than real love. That life will keep going, that even if some things have no reason, other things do. That People can change. That If you try enough, you'll eventually succeed. I've learned that the feeling of total freedom is worth nearly anything. And I've learned that the work it takes to restore broken trust is worth it, because people are worth it, especially the ones you love. Because other people do matter in your life. Helping change someone else's life is how you change the world. how you give living a meaning.

The fact is, we are Vapors. It doesn't matter what religion you are, Time is bigger than any and all of us. It was there before we came into being, and when the world is no more, Time will continue. I've learned this in my 18 years. And i plan to learn more. and I will fail, i will make mistakes, i will be broken, and i will hurt. But i'll keep going. I'll keep moving forward, and keep loving, and helping, and trying to make a difference. I'll give the people who say i can't the finger, and prove them wrong. Because i can. I can, and i will, make it through whatever comes my way. I'll change the world. I'll change MY world. Because I believe in Me. But what do I know, I'm just another Vapor, right?

"When a butterfly flaps its wings in one part of the world it can cause a hurricane  in another part of the world."  

Author Unknown

What Am i Thinking Right Now?

That I never want to be without you. We love you so much.We had fun today. We couldn't think of a better time  than spending the entire day. I love you so much. Holding you... was perfect. <3 And... >=).... was fun too. <3 I know (knew) I could control myself. not gonna say it wasn't hard though. <3 That movie sucked, but it was so worth suffering through for you. <3 That's all we have to say now.... It was... Fun <3

"Happiness is like a butterfly which, when pursued,

 is always beyond our grasp, but, 

if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."

~Nathaniel Hawthorne

I'm Sorry

Mittens, I'm so sorry. Please don't let this be the end. I love You. We all love you. I got angry and impulsive and I didn't think about the consequences of my actions. Please don't leave. LB is Bawling. Randy and Lizzy are Afraid somethings wrong with Us. Our pillow is soaked and We now have a massive headache. We love you so much it's crazy. We don't want anyone else. Just You. We're trying to be better for you cause we know we're effin things up the way We are now. Just love us... Please? I'm sorry.... Sweet dreams Beautiful...

"To love at all is to be vulnerable. --C.S. Lewis"

-Puck

Knocking on the door...

I'm not sure about who I am. I'm crazy... and unsure... moody and bitter sometimes.... I can be a real Ass.... And for a genius, I'm pretty stupid... But We love you... And You make Us feel complete and right, and perfect... and We aren't going anywhere. We're gonna stand by you, even when you ignore Us, or cast Us off. Cause We know you love Us just as much. And You say you're crazy.... Who isn't? We know We are... heck, We had to split our personalities just to keep things together. But the trick is knowing how to let yourself go sometimes.... We love you. Sweet dreams baby...

"A man who is "of sound mind" is one who keeps the inner madman under lock and key."

~Paul Valéry,Mauvaises pensées et autres, 1942

It's been a While...

First off, We have to say Thank you to everyone who wished us a Happy Birthday, gave money, any of that. We all wanna say pretty different things so let's get that out of the way.
8- It's definitely been a crazy 2 weeks, and a good birthday. I'm happy to be alive, and I have my family and friends... Now there's just one thing missing.... But We can't do anything about that.
?- .... Maybe now that we're older, We'll get our act together. Hopefully everyone else will too.
Dubmac- AAAAAAGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!! Thanks everyone! Love you guys. I wanna Go somewhere... Hang out with someone... Wish Puck would take over....
Puck- I'M SO FREAKIN BOOOOORRRRREEEEEED! Everyone's too busy for Us I guess.... Whatever. Screw you guys then. Thanks for sayin Happy Birthday though. I guess I forgive you.
Loverboy- I love you Mittens... Thank you for the party/dinner,,, =) I love you soooo much. No one's ever done that for us. I know that we've been having a hard time... But you know in your heart we belong together... Even the people That hate Us know we do. Nearly Anyone would tell you how We're crazy about you.... =)

Good night everyone... Sorry to hear about the ticket Krizzy... =/ That Really sucks....

"Right actions in the future are the best apologies for bad actions in the past."

-Tryon Edwards

Alas...

If only we could be together all the time.... I would like nothing more. I would love every second, and we would be happy. Lol... and just so you know, 8, Dubby, and ? are the ones who said no when We put it to a vote. (Puck and I said yes, though Puck's reasons might have been... impure) I understand 8's reasoning as to why We wait... Doesn't mean I have to like it. I love you sweetheart. Good night, and sweet dreams <3

"All you need is love -John Lennon & Paul McCartney"

Yours always,

Loverboy