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This is where I write about my life and (hopefully) figure out something about myself. I talk about what issues matter to me, from death and racism all the way to music and Childish Gambino.
I have 5 main personae (personas? idk, 5 split personalities) that I speak from: Puck, 8, Dubmac, Loverboy, and "?". They occasionally don't even agree on the same issues. ;)
Each identity is a facet of who I am. Each has a voice, an idea, a way of thinking. They're all important, and they make up who I am. So if you care to, read. Enjoy. Piece together my life, comment, follow, and learn about the real Mi8ke. Have fun ;)

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

My favorite poems are written for women that I’ve loved and for women that I’ve hurt,
amazing moments in my life, and relationships that didn’t work.
The map of this human heart starts at the age of 15
when I lost my virginity to a lady slightly older.
And like most younger boys, it was based on the many lies that I told her 
just to hold her and to show her that I had so much to prove,
like I had more experience than she thought I knew. And even though it wasn’t true, 
it was amazing. 
But it ended because I did what most young boys do: 
listen to the rumors and the lies of a fool, which ultimately led to this poor girl getting socked in the jaw in the middle of school.
And even though I didn’t do it,
I felt like I was the one to blame cause the girl who hit her was the cousin of my man who was saltin' my game
and even now, looking back, I feel sort of ashamed.
Next came
a handful of one night stands and in the back of my mind I thought it might make me a man,
but instead I think it was an invite for the rest of my life to be damned
for further examination of my affairs between woman and man.
I mean, man, it gets stressful.
I mean, don’t get me wrong, it always starts special,
but it seems to end with the grays of at the least bit neglectful,
and at the most disrespectful.
But then around the age of 19 it felt like I let go.
That’s when I fell for my first girlfriend
and it was like a whirlwind. I mean,
do you remember when that you felt that if you did not see her today, that it would literally hurt you in a physical way?
Well, that’s how it was the first time I fell in love.
Shit, I drove to my pop’s house in the middle of the night, woke him up, and told him I got bit by the bug. And
pops, he kind of looked at me with a smile in his eyes,
as if to recognize that, me,
I was moving on to the next part of my life.
You see, that was the first girl that that I made love to,
to a point of
tears
and I can still hear her whisper in my ear
that she could feel me... melt into her.... when I was deep inside her.
With a statement like that, I knew the feelings that she felt for me were not minor,
but major,
but then I, all of a sudden,
had this overwhelming feeling like...
I like no longer wanted to date her.
It’s not like I was tryin to play her,
I just I knew in my heart I no longer could stay there.
And...
So, that ended
as quickly as it started. And accusations of me being cold-hearted
and here I stand,
guilty as charged.
For it was Dinner. Chinese Food,
and I just stopped and said, “Yo,
I 'm just not into this no more.”


And she was silent....


Then I hit it one time in the car before I dropped her off at the front door.
And why am I telling you all this?
Cause recently I had the realization, or at least,
I have come to terms that in my many relations there were many lessons that I did not learn.
Even though I know I should have and could have been a better man,
and instead I let her land flat on her face instead of helping her to land on her feet. Sometimes I ache for the company of a woman to make me feel complete.
But that never works,
because before I can be happy with you, I gotta be happy with me.
Now the God in me is looking at the man I be,
f#*kin with mass girls, causing mass insanity,
with no thoughts of family,
just simply recreation,
but then I had the realization.
The dynamic of man and woman....
is creation.
And I’m not just talking about the creation of children,
I’m talking about the creation of a feeling:
life, love, and dedication, which ultimately ensues in the creation of a better me,
and the creation of a better you. See,
Sex,
Sex at it’s best, is creation.
But at least,
it should at least be concentration.
I mean, if I’m making love to you,
I should be making love to you.
You should be the first person that I see when I walk in the room.
And now, looking back at all that s#!t that I used to do,
nowadays don’t seem cool.
But tell me what the f%*k am I supposed to do?
And then a wise man gave me a clue
He said,
“The only way out is the way through.”

Thursday, November 24, 2011

"Texas Fight" 

Texas Fight! Texas Fight! 
And it's goodbye to A&M. 
Texas Fight! Texas Fight! 
And we'll put over one more win. 
Texas Fight! Texas Fight! 
For it's Texas that we love best. 
Hail, Hail, the gang's all here, 
And it's goodbye to all the rest! 

Yea, Orange! Yea, White! 
Yea, Longhorns! Fight! Fight! Fight! 
Texas Fight! Texas Fight! 
Yea, Texas Fight! 
Texas Fight! Texas Fight! 
Yea, Texas Fight! 
The 'Eyes of Texas' are upon you, 
All the live long day! 
The 'Eyes of Texas' are upon you, 
You cannot get away! 
Texas Fight! Texas Fight! 
For it's Texas that we love best! 
Hail, Hail, the gang's all here! 
And it's goodbye to all the rest! 

"The Eyes of Texas" 

The eyes of Texas are upon you, 
All the live long day. 
The eyes of Texas are upon you, 
You cannot get away. 
Do not think you can escape them, 
At night, or early in the morn. 
The eyes of Texas are upon you, 
'Till Gabriel blows his horn!

And Texas Longhorns for the win!!! We won in the last minute. A&M Played hard, but the dominate team prevailed. So it's goodbye to A&m till at least 2018. Peace!!!

Thursday, November 17, 2011

This Year is Summer "Camp"

"“Can I tell you something?” And all of a sudden I’m telling you. And I keep telling you and it all comes out of me and it keeps coming and your face is there and gone and there and gone as we pass underneath the orange lamps that line the sides of the highway. And there’s no expression on it. And I think just after a point I’m just talking to lengthen the time where we live in a world where you haven’t said “yes” or “no” yet. And regrettably I end up using the word “destiny.” I don’t remember in what context. Doesn’t matter."

That's a piece of the end of "That Power", a song on Childish Gambino's new album, Camp. Honestly, this is one of the best Rap/Hip-Hop albums I've heard in a long ass time. CG, also known as Donald Glover, a writer on NBC's 30 Rock, and the character Troy on Community (Ya, this nigga does a bit of everything. Comedian, Actor, Rapper, and He's good at all of them) silently came on the scene and exploded.
    As a side note, I am not one of the people that heard Camp and hopped on his bandwagon. I was a CG fan since I Do Not Talk. (Though mixtape-wise, The EP was sooo much better)

Now look, here's the truth, ALL of the songs on the album are good. Most people will post on various sites that Heartbeat, the most Radio-friendly song on the album, is one of the best. However, I would encourage you to listen to each song and decide for yourself. Personally, My top 3 songs would be:
That Power (Duh. Great word play on the verses, and I love listening to what he says around the end.),
Bonfire (First song I heard on the album and i still love hearing it. Witty, Sharp, and Hard Hitting, I think it was probably the first song that had a Gir and Casey Anthony reference)
You See Me ("No period like menopause / No period like, "Oh shit! / Am I the only one you sleepin' with?" Damn....)

Go cop the Album. It's nice. Oh, also, Drake's Take Care is also nice. I like it, he provides some slower jams and lots of emotion. But I think CG wins. (Sorry Drizzy, do better next time.) In the meantime, I think Childish Gambino has proven that he definitely needs to be taken seriously (I bet that in the very near future, CG will be featured on some big name artist's songs. I'm just sayin...)

Here's a link to Rap Genius, which has the lyrics to Camp and CG's other songs. Enjoy!

"I wish I could say this was a story about how I got on the bus a boy and got off a man more cynical, hardened, and mature and shit. But that’s not true. The truth is I got on the bus a boy. And I never got off the bus. I still haven’t"
-Childish Gambino "That Power"