The Saddest Birthday in the World

I... um... Today would've been a great day... or really, this would have been a great weekend... I would've been in woodville to surprise you, and had a great big surprise party for you... Bigger than last year. This time all your friends would have been there, not just the guys lol... after everyone left, we would've watched burlesque and cry baby and all the other movies you knew I hated but would make me watch anyway until you finally would fall asleep, tangled up in your weird shape, most likely holding on to my shirt cause you always had to make sure I was there.... I would've told you I love you and you'd say that since you were eighteen, I'd have to marry you now, and I'd tickle you and say ok, let's go to vegas then. I would've even skipped school today just to make you a little more happy. I really miss you Rae... You're always in my thoughts, and everything that happens now reminds me of you. I see tall blue heels everywhere now.... And today is really hard without you. I want to be angry with you. I want to yell and scream, but I can't. I.... I love you. And all you ever did was love me too. So I have to just hope that heaven's real and that I'll see you there one day... Happy birthday Frankie...