I wonder what i'll type. I haven't slept in a solid 48 hours, and I feel... Oddly mellow I suppose. I figure I should have to sleep tonight, my body needs it. I wonder how our brains would process information differently if we didn't sleep. Without dreams, hold can the subconscious guide the conscious? Would we become hyper aware, or maybe contemplate through meditation.
I think I figured out a piece of the answer to my question earlier.
I know it's a cycle. I know that by giving myself background noise, I'm making it easier to shut out more thoughts and so forth and so on, i get that. I know it's more than just an over-saturation of flash and gimmick that gets shoved into your ear every hour. I'm at a place where I understand that I'm choosing to live in the moment. I mean, I have been. I loathe setting long term goals nowadays. It's something about the fragility of saying you will or won't do something.
My mind is the type that is always pushing the boundaries of what should or shouldn't be. Once you say something will be, it's almost a challenge to make it not so. Contrary-wise (I don't know if that came from Lewis Carol, Alice in Wonderland, or just the Tweedles specifically, but I enjoyed using it), to tell me that something will not come to pass, is to show me goal, and to ask me not to try.
but what do I know? The world can lose its sheen when you're tired.
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